Engineered, produced, and mixed by Jeffry-Wynne Prince.
Mastered by Rainer Gembalczyk.
"Rabbit Hole" shouts by Ariana Henderson, Bri Fox, Troy Kleve, Bractune, and Paul Wright.
"Hurt by You" guitar solo by Thomas Murphy.
"Gotta Go Home" guitar solo by Jeffry-Wynne Prince.
Guitars, keys, and vocals by Philip Wright.
Bass and additional keys by Jeffry-Wynne Prince.
Drums by Bractune.
Cover art and design by Craig C. Martinez.
All music and lyrics by P Wright except "From Where I Stand" by P Wright / E Prince.
Arrangements by J Prince / P Wright.
Special thanks to Jeffry-Wynne Prince and Bractune for their creativity and guidance, The Bitter Elegance for the opportunities, Kevin Lee and Yamil Font for their patronage, Nici Sullivan and Danetta Jensen for helping me find my path, and to Monica Engebretson for just about everything.
Recorded at The Masquerade in Fair Oaks, California.
Additional recordings at The Rat Factory.
Stop eating meat.
© 2020 Philip Wright. ASCAP.
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Participation Trophy Records
I could not have made this record without these talented guys. Thank you Thomas, Jeffry, and Bractune. You all rock!
DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE
Every time I wake up I wonder if it's going to be the day I lose my mind
I see it all around me, the writing on the walls, but I can never read the signs
I tell myself I'll be alright, that I am in control
But it only takes one careless step to go tumbling down the rabbit hole
Out of desperation I lifted up a loaded gun and pointed at my brain
I didn't pull the trigger, just had to feel some power over all this psychic pain
I don't know if I'll be alright, if I can keep control
'Cause it only takes one little slip to go one-way down the rabbit hole
Down, down, down, down, down, down, down
Down, down, down, down, down, down, down
I'm on the edge
Drowning in depression, I'm hoping this anxiety is just a passing phase
I take my medication and slip into a temporary mollifying haze
They're telling me I'll be alright, that I will get control
But I can't see any way out of this while I'm staring down the rabbit hole
Down, down, down, down, down, down, down
Down, down, down, down, down, down, down
Hey, hey!
Hey, hey!
Hey, hey!
CAN YOU HEAR ME?
Can you hear me?
Out here so very far
Reaching for a second chance
Another shining star
We had to leave you
And everything behind
Too late to save our broken world
You'll be there as she dies
We are waking from synthetic sleep
No more waiting, counting chemical sheep
Bodies shaking after sailing through
A vast and empty sea
Can you hear me?
Disaster stalks our flight
Too fast to keep our rendezvous
Hurtling through the night
Desire in our reach
We can almost feel the ground
Reaching out for anything
To slow our lifeboat down
We can make it, we've come so close
Calculating one more desperate approach
Engine ready, say a prayer and ignite
Radioactive hope
Can you hear me?
Can you hear me?
Can you hear me?
She slips away
We stumbled in our dance
Woke up just outside a dream
At least we'll have a glance
She's beautiful
There's water everywhere
Now shrinking from our view
A star-crossed love affair
Can you hear me?
Can you hear me?
Can you hear me?
SHE FADES AWAY
For Danetta
She walks like a whisper
Smiles like the morning sun
But her eyes betray the secret
Of a heart that's come undone
She writes with a razor
Her story's etched into her skin
It's beautiful but tragical
Like a poem lost in the wind
She fades away
She fades away
Even though she lost her light
She'll still shine bright
She looks out the window
After the sun's already set
There's a faint reflection in the glass
Of a girl I won't forget
She wants to reach tomorrow
But today runs deep and wide
If she could stand on top of desperate thoughts
She'd climb up the other side
She fades away
She fades away
Even though she lost her light
She'll still shine bright
She's gonna be alright
She'll be alright
She fades away
She fades away
Even though she lost her light
She'll still shine bright
FROM WHERE I STAND (feat. Merlot)
You need some distance to see what I see
Your self-deprecation, it baffles me
You seem to find beauty everywhere you look
Except in the mirror where there's something wonderful
It breaks my heart
How much you hurt
From where I stand I can see your kindness
From where I stand I can feel your soul
From where I stand I'm so impressed
From where you stand I wish that you felt whole
I think you're whole
I wish I could be anybody else
Maybe you're like me when you reflect on yourself
There's so much magic in all that you do
I wish you could see through my eyes looking back at you
It breaks my heart
How much you hurt
From where I stand I can see your kindness
From where I stand I can feel your soul
From where I stand I'm so impressed
From where you stand I wish that you felt whole
From where I stand (I think you're whole)
From where you stand (I think you're whole)
From where I stand I can see your kindness
From where I stand I can feel your soul
From where I stand I'm so impressed
From where you stand I wish that you felt whole
I think you're whole
HURT BY YOU
I know what it's like to bleed
Erase these scars and there'd be nothin' left of me
And I've been beaten to the ground
There's a familiar taste of dirt inside my mouth
I've been hurt before, taken a hit or two
I've been hurt before
But not like I've been hurt by you, you cut me on the inside
Not like I've been hurt by you, this pain will never subside
I've made some tactical mistakes
Who knew that I had so much blood inside my face?
And now my body's not the same
The girls in radiology all know my name
I've been hurt before, taken a hit or two
I've been hurt before
But not like I've been hurt by you, you cut me on the inside
Not like I've been hurt by you, this pain will never subside
Hurt. By. You.
I've been hurt before, taken a hit or two
I've been hurt before
But not like I've been hurt by you, you cut me on the inside
Not like I've been hurt by you, this pain will never subside
Not like I've been hurt by you, you cut me on the inside
Not like I've been hurt by you, within an inch of my life, f*** you!
Not like I've been hurt by you
Not like I've been hurt by you
Not like I've been hurt by
SEND A WAVE AROUND THE WORLD
Wake up and follow your dream
Wave at everyone you see
Keep the faith up on your hill
You found your heart, she's with you still
Wake up
Send a wave around the world
Send a wave around the world
Stand up to people who hate
Be taller than the lies they make
You have more than they can see
Your book of love is all you need
Stand up
Send a wave around the world
Send a wave around the world
Send a wave around the world
Send a wave around the world
They haven't been where you've been
Haven't seen what you've seen
So go on, go on, go on
Look up to the face on the moon
Remember who's smiling down on you
Hard to learn when things go right
You need the dark to find the light
Look up
Send a wave around the world
Send a wave around the world
Send a wave around the world
Send a wave around the world
Look up
Stand up
Wake up
GOTTA GO HOME
Here at the bar you're dripping with innuendo
Your eyes so pretty, how can I not pretend?
I can't hear my life underneath this crescendo
All I can think right now is, "where will this end?"
I want to be here, but I gotta go home
Gotta go, gotta go, gotta go
I want to be here, but I gotta go home
Making your moves, now we are dangerously close
DJ's on fire and I'm drunk from the heat
Your hands are asking questions I should not answer
It's getting harder, I'm an inch from defeat
I want to be here, but I gotta go home
Gotta go, gotta go, gotta go
I want to be here, but I gotta go home
You've made your case
Make up your mind
I've gotta think
I'm wasting time
I want to be here, but I gotta go home
Gotta go, gotta go, gotta go
I want to be here, but I gotta go home
Ya, ya, ya...
TO THE CROWS
I stand beneath the canopy
Of dying autumn leaves
The emptiness inside of me
Is colder than the breeze
I've come this way a hundred times
To walk beneath the crows
Just so I could listen
Try to find out what they know
I keep on getting older, keep on waiting to be wise
But every truth I find comes with another pack of lies
No place to find redemption, no ransom for my soul
I want to die right here and leave my body
To the crows
To the crows
Small black eyes are watching me
As if they know it's time
Can they hear my heart?
Can they read my mind?
A rusty pistol in my hand
It only has one round
The taste of bitter steel
I don't even hear the sound
The pavement rushes up with a bed of fallen leaves
The murder up above me goes exploding from the trees
No faith in resurrection, no respite for my soul
I fly away from here and leave my body
To the crows
To the crows
They were calling, calling...