Engineered, produced, and mixed by Jeffry-Wynne Prince.

Mastered by Rainer Gembalczyk.

"Rabbit Hole" shouts by Ariana Henderson, Bri Fox, Troy Kleve, Bractune, and Paul Wright.

"Hurt by You" guitar solo by Thomas Murphy.

"Gotta Go Home" guitar solo by Jeffry-Wynne Prince.

Guitars, keys, and vocals by Philip Wright.

Bass and additional keys by Jeffry-Wynne Prince.

Drums by Bractune.

Cover art and design by Craig C. Martinez.

All music and lyrics by P Wright except "From Where I Stand" by P Wright / E Prince.

Arrangements by J Prince / P Wright.

Special thanks to Jeffry-Wynne Prince and Bractune for their creativity and guidance, The Bitter Elegance for the opportunities, Kevin Lee and Yamil Font for their patronage, Nici Sullivan and Danetta Jensen for helping me find my path, and to Monica Engebretson for just about everything.

Recorded at The Masquerade in Fair Oaks, California.

Additional recordings at The Rat Factory.

Stop eating meat.

© 2020 Philip Wright. ASCAP.

All rights reserved.

Participation Trophy Records

I could not have made this record without these talented guys. Thank you Thomas, Jeffry, and Bractune. You all rock!

DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE

Every time I wake up I wonder if it's going to be the day I lose my mind

I see it all around me, the writing on the walls, but I can never read the signs

I tell myself I'll be alright, that I am in control

But it only takes one careless step to go tumbling down the rabbit hole

Out of desperation I lifted up a loaded gun and pointed at my brain

I didn't pull the trigger, just had to feel some power over all this psychic pain

I don't know if I'll be alright, if I can keep control

'Cause it only takes one little slip to go one-way down the rabbit hole

Down, down, down, down, down, down, down

Down, down, down, down, down, down, down

I'm on the edge

Drowning in depression, I'm hoping this anxiety is just a passing phase

I take my medication and slip into a temporary mollifying haze

They're telling me I'll be alright, that I will get control

But I can't see any way out of this while I'm staring down the rabbit hole

Down, down, down, down, down, down, down

Down, down, down, down, down, down, down

Hey, hey!

Hey, hey!

Hey, hey!

CAN YOU HEAR ME?

Can you hear me?

Out here so very far

Reaching for a second chance

Another shining star

We had to leave you

And everything behind

Too late to save our broken world

You'll be there as she dies

We are waking from synthetic sleep

No more waiting, counting chemical sheep

Bodies shaking after sailing through

A vast and empty sea

Can you hear me?

Disaster stalks our flight

Too fast to keep our rendezvous

Hurtling through the night

Desire in our reach

We can almost feel the ground

Reaching out for anything

To slow our lifeboat down

We can make it, we've come so close

Calculating one more desperate approach

Engine ready, say a prayer and ignite

Radioactive hope

Can you hear me?

Can you hear me?

Can you hear me?

She slips away

We stumbled in our dance

Woke up just outside a dream

At least we'll have a glance

She's beautiful

There's water everywhere

Now shrinking from our view

A star-crossed love affair

Can you hear me?

Can you hear me?

Can you hear me?

SHE FADES AWAY

For Danetta

She walks like a whisper

Smiles like the morning sun

But her eyes betray the secret

Of a heart that's come undone

 

She writes with a razor

Her story's etched into her skin

It's beautiful but tragical

Like a poem lost in the wind

 

She fades away

She fades away

Even though she lost her light

She'll still shine bright

She looks out the window

After the sun's already set

There's a faint reflection in the glass

Of a girl I won't forget

She wants to reach tomorrow

But today runs deep and wide

If she could stand on top of desperate thoughts

She'd climb up the other side

She fades away

She fades away

Even though she lost her light

She'll still shine bright

She's gonna be alright

She'll be alright

She fades away

She fades away

Even though she lost her light

She'll still shine bright

FROM WHERE I STAND (feat. Merlot)

You need some distance to see what I see

Your self-deprecation, it baffles me

You seem to find beauty everywhere you look

Except in the mirror where there's something wonderful

 

It breaks my heart

How much you hurt

From where I stand I can see your kindness

From where I stand I can feel your soul

From where I stand I'm so impressed

From where you stand I wish that you felt whole

I think you're whole

 

I wish I could be anybody else

Maybe you're like me when you reflect on yourself

There's so much magic in all that you do

I wish you could see through my eyes looking back at you

It breaks my heart

How much you hurt

 

From where I stand I can see your kindness

From where I stand I can feel your soul

From where I stand I'm so impressed

From where you stand I wish that you felt whole

 

From where I stand (I think you're whole)

From where you stand (I think you're whole)

 

From where I stand I can see your kindness

From where I stand I can feel your soul

From where I stand I'm so impressed

From where you stand I wish that you felt whole

I think you're whole

HURT BY YOU

I know what it's like to bleed

Erase these scars and there'd be nothin' left of me

And I've been beaten to the ground

There's a familiar taste of dirt inside my mouth

I've been hurt before, taken a hit or two

I've been hurt before

But not like I've been hurt by you, you cut me on the inside

Not like I've been hurt by you, this pain will never subside

I've made some tactical mistakes

Who knew that I had so much blood inside my face?

And now my body's not the same

The girls in radiology all know my name

I've been hurt before, taken a hit or two

I've been hurt before

But not like I've been hurt by you, you cut me on the inside

Not like I've been hurt by you, this pain will never subside

Hurt. By. You.

I've been hurt before, taken a hit or two

I've been hurt before

But not like I've been hurt by you, you cut me on the inside

Not like I've been hurt by you, this pain will never subside

Not like I've been hurt by you, you cut me on the inside

Not like I've been hurt by you, within an inch of my life, f*** you!

Not like I've been hurt by you

Not like I've been hurt by you

Not like I've been hurt by

SEND A WAVE AROUND THE WORLD

Wake up and follow your dream

Wave at everyone you see

Keep the faith up on your hill

You found your heart, she's with you still

Wake up

 

Send a wave around the world

Send a wave around the world

Stand up to people who hate

Be taller than the lies they make

You have more than they can see

Your book of love is all you need

Stand up

Send a wave around the world

Send a wave around the world

Send a wave around the world

Send a wave around the world

They haven't been where you've been

Haven't seen what you've seen

So go on, go on, go on

Look up to the face on the moon

Remember who's smiling down on you

Hard to learn when things go right

You need the dark to find the light

Look up

Send a wave around the world

Send a wave around the world

Send a wave around the world

Send a wave around the world

Look up

Stand up

Wake up

GOTTA GO HOME

 

Here at the bar you're dripping with innuendo

Your eyes so pretty, how can I not pretend?

I can't hear my life underneath this crescendo

All I can think right now is, "where will this end?"

 

I want to be here, but I gotta go home

Gotta go, gotta go, gotta go

I want to be here, but I gotta go home

Making your moves, now we are dangerously close

DJ's on fire and I'm drunk from the heat

Your hands are asking questions I should not answer

It's getting harder, I'm an inch from defeat

I want to be here, but I gotta go home

Gotta go, gotta go, gotta go

I want to be here, but I gotta go home

You've made your case

Make up your mind

I've gotta think

I'm wasting time

I want to be here, but I gotta go home

Gotta go, gotta go, gotta go

I want to be here, but I gotta go home

Ya, ya, ya...

TO THE CROWS

I stand beneath the canopy

Of dying autumn leaves

The emptiness inside of me

Is colder than the breeze

I've come this way a hundred times

To walk beneath the crows

Just so I could listen

Try to find out what they know

I keep on getting older, keep on waiting to be wise

But every truth I find comes with another pack of lies

No place to find redemption, no ransom for my soul

I want to die right here and leave my body

To the crows

To the crows

Small black eyes are watching me

As if they know it's time

Can they hear my heart?

Can they read my mind?

A rusty pistol in my hand

It only has one round

The taste of bitter steel

I don't even hear the sound

The pavement rushes up with a bed of fallen leaves

The murder up above me goes exploding from the trees

No faith in resurrection, no respite for my soul

I fly away from here and leave my body

To the crows

To the crows

They were calling, calling...

© 2018-2020 Philip Wright.